Cupcake Time.

I've been a been a bit grumbly the past week (fine, two weeks or so) at work and I wasn't really sure why. I found myself starting to be slightly anti-social, and irritated when people started talking to me because I kept losing my focus on the projects I was working on. In addition to being PLC, I was given other duties as a Peer Advisor and I guess it just became too much for me. To be fully honest, I knew I wasn't giving 100% to both of my jobs. I found myself scrambling for icebreakers and activities just a few hours before training and it was hurting me that I wasn't wholeheartedly dedicated to something I promised myself to be. It drove me insane. I was caught up in the world of Field Guides and it was literally never ending until this past week.

I started working on the Field Guide last year when I was a student assistant last year and I didn't mind it too much. It took a while, but it was just editing and updating information about the campus. This year, I played more of a role in designing and structure of the Field Guide and, oh, there were three of them. Yeah, I said it--three. One for first-year students, transfer students, and families. I realized just now how crazy that is. No wonder I was anti-social! hahahaha Well, I guess with all of that on my mind and everything else I find myself doing, I found myself overwhelmed.

It's a lot to handle now that I think of it and it's times like these when I really have to learn to say no. I told Yosayra how I was feeling earlier this week and she helped my by talking to Lindsay. I just chuckled because I went into Lindsay's office the day after and one of the first things she told me was, "Jossie told me to lay off." hahahahahaha

I'm really happy Yosayra and Lindsay mentor me. They're really understanding and that's what I like most about them. They've helped me out a lot, especially this year with helping me figure out my, well, whole life. hahahaha. It's so weird. SO weird to think that in just a year, I'll be graduating. I guess it'll be weird because I'm so comfortable and I'll soon be making all these decisions by myself and they won't be a few feet away from me to ask them for advice. Well, maybe they will be, but I gotta get my master's first! hahahaha. I crack myself up.

Sometimes, I randomly remember that conversation I had with Yosayra a few weeks ago. She told me how she's trying to make me self-reliant and self-sufficient because she's not always gonna be right there to help me and I have to learn to trust myself. It's true. I always find myself second-thinking myself and asking others for opinions just to make sure what I'm doing is right. I guess sometimes...I have to take risks and just kinda figure things out on my own. I've come a long way and I've grown a lot and, to be honest, I'm not sure why I don't trust myself sometimes. I guess it's just something I have to learn. It'll come through.

Anyways, bringing it back to this week, Yosayra and Lindsay let me focus on my bigger projects and the field guides are done! Lindsay bought me cupcakes and they seemed to be a cure! hahaha I feel a lot better. My last day of PA for the year is Tuesday and then I have a week off to focus on my finals. So far, it's a good ending to the semester. I don't feel as crazy right now and it's all thanks to my awesome mentors and some awesome cupcakes.