The "S" and the "G" Word

Junior year is done. Junior year is done. Wait--maybe if I say it one more time, I'll believe it. Junior year is done...

It's crazy. I still don't believe that I just finished my third year of college. It's been a little over a week, but I guess it's official now--I'm a--I'm a--Senior... (Yes, that's the "S" word.) Every time the word Senior or Graduation come out of my mouth, I feel like throwing up. It baffles me that Senior year is what's next, that--in a year--I'll be graduating. GRADUATING. Seeing the word on the screen just sent a shiver up my spine.

Well, I'm slowly trying to emotionally and mentally prepare myself so I hopefully don't have a breakdown, even though I have a strong feeling I will one day come to cry in Morehead Hall. I've probably said this about 100 times, but I can't say it enough. I'm really grateful for having the opportunity to work in such a great place with such amazing people. I've been working there since my freshman year and they have literally taken care of me. It has become my second home.

I was talking to Michele today and I was telling her how nervous I was about becoming a senior. I started telling her the classes I'm taking next semester and how I'm going to be interning at a different department in the Fall and she stopped me and said, "wait! You're not going to be here in the Fall?!" hahahaha To which my reaction was of course I'm going to be here!!! hahaha But yeah, she told me something that made me a little nervous, but made me smile at the same time: she told me that I was ready for grad school. Gah. hahaha. That's crazy, but it means a lot coming from Michele. *takes deep breath* This is going to be a crazy journey.

I learned so much in my Junior year. How I began my Junior year and how I ended it were completely different. I had a lot to figure out--a lot. It took me a lot of time to figure these things out and I'm probably still figuring some of the stuff out, but I made some pretty crazy changes: decided to change my career, majors/minors, jobs and not to mention all the things I learned about myself and others.

Now that it's summer, I can finally get a start on my grad school search. I'm working in the office till Peer Leader starts and I'm really excited for what's to come. Keep moving forward, yo.