Well, I really don't know where to begin. There were so many things going through my head last week. All I can say is that being a PL never fails to challenge me...
I guess I'll start with Lindsay. We got to have a talk session last week which was really cool and something I now realize I needed. This job can get overwhelming sometimes. It feels like people always come to me--and I love it, but at the same time, it's a lot. I have all these concerns swirling in my head all the time and they're just not going away. I keep thinking about this job. I was getting better at separating my life and work, but sometimes, I feel like I'm going backwards.
It's really hard though, especially during PL. It's like the work never stops. I don't just work with these people, I live with them too and people will bring up random concerns or questions to me at random times, so it's hard to have that balance. What I'm conflicted with is trying to help people, but helping myself too. I love that people can come to me and talk to me and they look up to me and stuff, but I'm not a superhero. I don't want people to stop coming to me, but at the same time, I want to just have time to focus on myself too...
Ever since my talk with Lindsay, I've been feeling a little better. I try to keep some things she told me in mind like set your boundaries, or that maybe people just want you to listen to them... To take care of myself because no one else will if I don't.
I think things are getting better as a whole about this whole experience though... One of the PLs came up to me the other night and thanked me for everything and gave me an ice cream sandwich, which was so cute that I started to cry. lol I love my roommates a lot and I continue to have bonding sessions with people and it's not even so much as me in my Plc role, but me in a friend role, which is kind of nice. We have a really good team, we really do.
It's rough sometimes, but I'm really glad I have people who helped along the way. Our grad intern, Liz, is amazing. She's so easy to talk to and she kind of just gets me. The more I get to know about her, the more in common we seem to have, which is really cool. I look up to her a lot, especially since she's still in grad school and studying student affairs. I can kind of see myself like her in two years, which probably sounds really weird, but yeah hahaha
I really have no idea what I would do without Yosayra and Lindsay. Their support and belief in me is what keeps me going. I'm glad I have a strong relationship with them because, sometimes, I feel like I don't have anyone to talk to and they're always there to help me out. Sure, sometimes they might spoil me, but I really, really appreciate everything they do for me. They are the best mentors in the whole, wide world. =]
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