Summer Has Just Begun

It's been a while! Everything's been so hectic since the start of PL in the beginning of the month...actually last month. (I just realized it's July--seriously?) Well, I haven't really been able to catch my breath and I decided this weekend was going to be a good weekend to come home, relax, and just take a step away from everything for a little bit.

I haven't really gotten a chance to stop and self-reflect about everything I'm experiencing this summer, so I figure a good blog post would be a good starter. Well, I can honestly say there is never a dull moment in being a peer leader. This year's team is amazing. There are no words to describe it, but everyone is really open and understanding to each other and I'm not gonna lie--the whole team surprised me because I never expected that!

This year is different in that being PLC is really teaching me a lot. It's weird though. I think I expected something a little different. I feel like the past two years, I felt like I was pushed out of my comfort level and--through that--discovered a new level of potential that I have. I kind of expected the same thing for this year, but it doesn't really feel that way.

During everything so far, there have been moments when I was initially nervous about something, but I knew deep down inside that I could do it. During the retreat, there was a little piece of me that didn't think I could go through the high-ropes course and zip-line down and I'm sure I was pretty certain for a few weeks that I was going to throw up in the transitions skit because I was so nervous. But, I did both and I'm really proud of myself, but for some reason, I didn't feel as I was pushed out of my comfort zone. I didn't really doubt myself, I was just nervous. I'm not really sure what it means. Hm.

I'm definitely still challenged, no doubt about that. It's really hard to be a team leader--really hard. I sometimes wonder what thoughts went through the minds of the two PLCs before me during their summers. I love this team so much and I'm giving my all into making us a really strong team, but it's hard sometimes. I guess I try to make things perfect, even though they can't be. I just want everyone to have a positive experience, that's all.

With that said, I think I'll head to bed. There's more to think about, but my mind is cleared for now. Good night, world!